Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Life goes on...
I went to a wedding this last weekend and celebrated the joining of two people. I love weddings. I love dressing up, I love the food, dancing and chatting with friends. I also love to people watch. It is so interesting to me how people function in a group setting. Some most have friend by there side at every turn, others need their personal space and like to sit back and watch people dance instead of move themselves. Some people need to work the room and say hello to all while others enjoy a few personal conversations that take their attention for most of the night. What makes us who we are and what are our motivations?
Thanksgiving is this week and I am ready for some food! So much to be thankful for. My HEALTH, my family, Andy, my job and home. As I grow older, each year and see more of the hardships of this world, some I experience and some I just observe. This year my heart is full of thanks again for another year of blessings. My hope and prayer is to continue to see all that has been given to me just because Christ loves me.
Happy Thanksgiving!
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Not what they seem
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
My battlefield of Panic
I hate the mind sometimes. The power it has to create feelings and then never resolve them. I had an attack last night. I did everything right yesterday, eat a well balanced meal, worked out, when to bed early, and still all the above didn’t keep the monster away.
All I remember is waking up from a bad dream, sweating like crazy and having major stomach problems. And when I say major I mean my body makes me think I have the stomach flu. It is horrible. So I have to start the regiment of getting gum, a wet rag, freezing myself down and then getting someone on the phone to get my mind of the panic. For most people, throwing up is no big deal, but for me it is like one of the worst thing ever. It is most defiantly my biggest fear, throwing up, passing out and dying right there on the floor. And that thought process right there is the problem, in my mind, throwing up leads to death. I have talked through this with therapist, but not much has worked.
Thank fully, the attack normally lifts after about 45 minuets, and this one followed that path. Some day I know I will ever have an attack again. And maybe that was the last one. Maybe I am done with them. That would be really nice.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
The Flog
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
John 5:1-9-The Healing at the Pool
He has just arrived in Jerusalem to participate in a feast. It will either be in celebration of Pentecost or when Mose received the Ten Commandments. The people of this town are desperate to believe that God is with them and that he is good. They have been absent of a prophet for many years and are starting to believe God has left them for another people.
In the center of the town was a temple where people went to feel God. They purchased scarifies and waited to feel renewed. In the front of this temple flowed a pool of water that was occasionally st ired by an angle. The first person in the water would instantaneously be healed. Can you imagine. No more cancer, Aids, Depression. Always around feasts God would heal more people then normal, just to prove he was near.
Then a prophet arrives. 38 year diseased man laid close enough to see and feel the mists of the moving waters, but to far to be the first to get in.
Jesus asks, " Do you want to be healed?" The man gives his reasoning as to why his wants don't line up with his circumstances. " Yes but I can't seem to be the first in"
Jesus heals the man. The healed person doesn't thank him. When asked by the Jews who had healed him on the forbidden Sabbath, he has no knowledge of the man to give.
Latter Jesus found him at the temple and said to him, "See, you are well again. Stop sinning or something worse may happen to you." The man went away and told the Jews that it was Jesus who had made him well.
When does Jesus ever put salvation before love?
How often do I put my self-interest before love?
Love is patient and kind.
Monday, August 4, 2008
Crazy weekend :)
Life is fun.
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Know the heart behind the blogger.
Some times I feel obligated to tell them I have read their post just so I don't feel so intrusive.
So yesterday I really tried to live in that day. I tried my darness to not live in past memories or future hopes and fears. And the goal is to do it today again. This is very difficult so I have also tried to eat as many blue berries as I possibly could.
Blue berries are anti-oxidants and they also help clear out the brain.

On ward my friends and who knows, maybe I will see you soon.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Blanket of Security.
My blanket is smooth on the outside, but has holes on the inside. I think to myself "Get the blanket, run and find the blanket before you take a step."
The rivers of my heart are all over the place all day long. Some times they are smooth and other times they are a wild river.
Where is that damn blanket. Why would Jesus try and take it from me? Who does he think he is? All I feel most of the time is fear and I just want a blanket.
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
Kingdom Investments
I am apart of this Kingdom.
It is not something that is on its way. It is here.
O mind that you would be renewed to know Him and see His Glory.
O spirit that you might live in the freedom already bought and given to you.
O heart, that you would feel the deep rivers of passion the King has for you.
Come Holy Spirit. Come Father. Come My Jesus. Move in the hearts of your loved one. Bring the Life you promise in the land of the living. No more pain, no more waiting. Come now and come to those who doubt. Come close to the one who struggles, come close to the one you is close to death. Break through the PRIDE, Break through the Fear.
Spirit of Restoration come forth. Fruit of the Spirit Grow in dead hearts. Come Lord. Come and use all of me in the process.
Monday, June 23, 2008
Promises of Goodness
The goodness of God is Holy, it will change your whole heart.
I can do all things through Christ. ALL THINGS. And he is good, not because I am worthy of it. He is good because that is who he is.
Trust Him. Be in this day. Not the last or the next. Life is only in today.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Dying to Live
The spiritual warfare is thick these days, not because I believe the kingdom is advancing, but because we are being attacked for the sake of death. I know the Lord will develop fruit in my life from perseverance of ordanary life, but honestly, I don't feel life I am fighting for much these days. Most of my energy goes towards making my plans work. Trying with all my might to work hard at my job, saving money for the future, work on my relationships with my friends, forgive, be normal.
I really don't want to mess with this crap any more. I want to fight for salvation, fight for the breaking of strong holds, shine the light, know all of God's personalities, care for the less fortunate. But instead, I am fighting for my life savings. Bull Shit Bull Shit.
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Pieces from the Yellow Road
He who works his land will have abundant food, but he who chases fantasies lack judgement.
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
The Big Bug
For those of you who don't know Andy Edwards, get to know him. Most diffidently one of my favorite people alive.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
The deep joys of treasures not yet found
Facts about my heart that are known to me:
Justice and Truth are strong stones
Babies and Children always speak to my heart
I love a clean organized home -random I know.
Andy and I talk alot about life vs the idea of life. Living for tomorrow never today. Hopping at times the fantasies of life might still be true, relationships with out strife, work that feels like play, unending joy with out pain.
Some days I want to be a lawyer and defend the poor, other days I want to be a nurse and deliver babies, and there are days I want to listen to people's struggles and help bring clarity to greyness. All so different. Which way is the yellow brink road?

Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
The First Time
Monday, June 2, 2008
Starting to see past my driving

Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Letting go and having to be held

Biting down and not letting go, what does this remind me of…
I have plans for my life. I have goals and I have aspirations. And I have them in a some what sold grip. However, small detail, I don’t know what I want to do with my life. For those of you who didn’t follow that train of thought, let me spell it out for you.. Contradiction
So what do I have a strong grip on? I have a strong grip on wanting to be happy and secure. I want to know every thing is going to be ok and I will be happy.
From the outside this looks simple. I am holding tightly to myself hoping myself will come through for me. Unfortunately, I don’t trust myself. So this leaves me with a strong grip on nothing.
I must try and retrain my thinking to believe that I am holding nothing but I am the one being held. My whole lively hood is not mine to obtain. All my wants and needs in this life are not mine to fulfill.
If you haven’t seen the recent Narnia, you must. At one point in the movie the oldest girl states she had just gotten used to living in London and then she is whisked way to Narnia. But what she don’t realize is that she and her brothers and sister have been chosen out of the hundreds of millions to save Narnia, to have more adventures and see more things that anyone could ever imagine. But her grip was tightly held to her plan, wanting to live life out of Narnia where it is consistent and safe. I think this girl and I have something in common.
Let us live.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Daughter of Christian Singer Chapman Killed

Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Making a cake
Friday, May 16, 2008
The Over abundance of pain and freedom
Habakkuk 2:20 "But oh! God is in his holy Temple! Quiet everyone—a holy silence. Listen!"
Speak Jesus, Speak Holy Spirit. Quiet all voices. He is speaking. My Lord speaks. He speaks. But I have questions. Why? Why aren't you...Why haven't you...Are you going to...How will you...
"1 What's God going to say to my questions? I'm braced for the worst. I'll climb to the lookout tower and scan the horizon.I'll wait to see what God says, how he'll answer my complaint.
And then God answered: "Write this. Write what you see.Write it out in big block letters so that it can be read on the run.This vision-message is a witness - pointing to what's coming.It aches for the coming—it can hardly wait! And it doesn't lie.If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time. " Habakkuk 2:1-3
It aches, my inner ache for His comming. His Words. Life come forth. Life come Forth! Laura's heart is moving. I feel her moving. But she has tears. She weeps. She weeps. All the things her heart felt at so young. Little girl fear no more. Lies must be silent. She is His and His only. She is lovely. She is pure, she is wanted. She is needed. Laura is a delight to the Father's heart. She is next to Him now. She has His authority.
He loves me. Jesus loves me. He sees me. He broke through my pain. He broke through the hard places. I call forth more freedom. I call forth freedom. I call forth Freedom. Hold me back no more. Hold me back no more. Reflections. Reflected on His power. Reflected on His glory. Reflected on His heart. His heart for me. He loves me. He is strong. He is Holy. Holy Holy Holy. My heart knows no other Holyness. My heart craves no other Holyness. The beauty of His face. The beauty of His thrown. Lord, Lord Jesus. Your goodness. I crave your goodness. Show your mercy, show your power to do all things. My heart needs all things.
Praise be to the only Holy one. The only Holy one.
Habakkuk 2:20 "But oh! God is in his holy Temple! Quiet everyone—a holy silence. Listen!"
Monday, May 12, 2008
A weekend of Fun, Sun and ...
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Things He Hates...Reminders to follow
- haughty eyes (proud; snobbish; scornfully arrogant)
-a lying tongue
-hands thats kill the innocent
-a heart that plots evil
-feet that race to do wrong
-a false witness who pours out lies
-a person who sows discord among brothers
Crazy that he uses different bodie parts to show the Lord's hatred.
Scripture says that correction of discipline is the way to life.
Small mental reminders:
-people with good sense restrain their anger, they earn esteem by overlooking wrongs
-Avoid all perverse talk, stay far from corrupt speech
-Sow love, kindness, patience...in dew time you will reap love, kindess and patience.
-Discipline is a connerstone in God's way of life.
-judge a tree by its fruit
Monday, May 5, 2008
The Year of the Lord's Favor
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
How do I...
Enough of those thoughts. I am going to the Oklahoma City Arts Festivle tonight with my main man...
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Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Martha Vs. Mary
Sunday, April 20, 2008
My deep need, He Will Not Delay
- Ps 40:16-17
I need joy and gladness. I am poor and very needy, but the Lord, my God, my Savior is thinking of me, Laura Elizabeth Prince, right now. He has good things for me right now. He is my spring of living water. He is my guide. He promises to blindfold my mindseye and lead me over life's mountains through the river of the Holy Spirit, found in the deep places of my heart.
My heart's desire is know Him, to walk with Him. For Him to be my guide.
"He lifted me out of the pit of despair out of the mud and the mire. He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along. He gave me a new song to sing a hymn of praises to our God. Many will see what He has done and be astounded." Ps 40:2-3
Do not delay. O my God
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Invention rubberband. Many different purposes. Over all theme, to hold things together. Lets have a chat about friendships and the Love that holds them together. Love them and I hate them. Very normal here when I admitt that I like them when I FEEL loved and wanted, not to up on them when I don't. When you are inside the rubberband of best friendship you start out tight. You tell them all your hip and hops, you trust them, they like who you like and avoid your frustrating people not because they agree with the wrong you hold them to but because they are choosing to stand by you and not the middle ground. But then life brings about changes and you grow a bit apart. They start dating someone, you start dating someone, they get married and you breakup with yours. They move, you stay. They come home and you move and so on and so on. But there comes a time in each relationship where you decide, am I cool with the distance we now share in our friendship, or does the idea of getting out not not putting forward any efford sound more appleaing. Truth be told I have made both moves. I have stayed and I have left. And I hounestly can't tell you (once again because of my friend Illusion) if I did the right thing.
More to come...
Monday, April 14, 2008
Hope, Dreams and Illusions
And Illusion has a straight path to my emotions. One two three and she has me all tightened up. She gives the illution that I wish life would look different (when maybe I really like how life is going) or tell me that this relationship issue with my friends, or family or boyfriend is all their problem when in reality it is mine.
So back to Hope. I want us to be better friends and we will. But Illusion and I need to have it out before Hope and I become better friends.
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Finally a Love Come True
My house is a male. I am good with that. Makes me feel safe.
Only more to come