Promises of Goodness

God is Good. I promise you, He is good. I cried out to him, and he answered. He answered me.

The goodness of God is Holy, it will change your whole heart.

I can do all things through Christ. ALL THINGS. And he is good, not because I am worthy of it. He is good because that is who he is.

Trust Him. Be in this day. Not the last or the next. Life is only in today.

Dying to Live

I am starting to believe that if a life has been transformed into a new creation, if left to enjoy the goodness of God and of His people, it would naturally tell of His goodness. Being told from very young age that if I love God I will tell of His goodness, has sent me into a life of must dos. I firmly believe that if had never been told to share, it would have happened naturally.

The spiritual warfare is thick these days, not because I believe the kingdom is advancing, but because we are being attacked for the sake of death. I know the Lord will develop fruit in my life from perseverance of ordanary life, but honestly, I don't feel life I am fighting for much these days. Most of my energy goes towards making my plans work. Trying with all my might to work hard at my job, saving money for the future, work on my relationships with my friends, forgive, be normal.

I really don't want to mess with this crap any more. I want to fight for salvation, fight for the breaking of strong holds, shine the light, know all of God's personalities, care for the less fortunate. But instead, I am fighting for my life savings. Bull Shit Bull Shit.

Pieces from the Yellow Road

Proverbs 12:11 -

He who works his land will have abundant food, but he who chases fantasies lack judgement.

The Big Bug

I got bit by an emotional bug today. Some emotions went through the roof with freedom to live, others emotions went for a swim, with the realization things can't go directions I want them to.

For those of you who don't know Andy Edwards, get to know him. Most diffidently one of my favorite people alive.

The deep joys of treasures not yet found

My heart has some deep movement. I can feel what freedom looks like, but I have no idea how to live it out.



Facts about my heart that are known to me:

Justice and Truth are strong stones

Babies and Children always speak to my heart

I love a clean organized home -random I know.



Andy and I talk alot about life vs the idea of life. Living for tomorrow never today. Hopping at times the fantasies of life might still be true, relationships with out strife, work that feels like play, unending joy with out pain.



Some days I want to be a lawyer and defend the poor, other days I want to be a nurse and deliver babies, and there are days I want to listen to people's struggles and help bring clarity to greyness. All so different. Which way is the yellow brink road?

This little lady is Ryan and Kristin's babe. She is playing with her friends while her mother reads from the Word of God at the refuge. Love this family.

The First Time

I just found pieces of my heart again. What if I where to tell you that His Truth will set you heart free.

It's true, when you find Him, all of Him, all you want to do is Worship Him. All you want to do is loose your life. Take my life, take my heart, thoughts, my will.

Starting to see past my driving

He speaks. He moves. So I am trying to respond. Really trying

He is great and greatly to be praise. So I try to praise when I don't see past the wheel.

Only He knows the joys that over flow from the deep rivers in my heart. So I trust, all most all the time.

He speaks with strength. My Lord is mighty to save. I need good strength. I need to feel strength.

He will deliver. He will. So I wait, I will wait. Must wait.

He promises me that I will be complete someday.

1 Cor 1:8 He will keep you strong to the end, so that you will be blameless on the day of our Lord Jesus Christ. 9 God, who has called you into fellowship with his Son Jesus Christ our Lord, is faithful.

I have fallen apart, barley breathing, with a broken heart, that is still beating, in the pain, there is healing, in your name, I find meaning...so I am holding on. -Lifehouse