Letting go and having to be held

I know, very ugly animal. Not really something that makes me think “cute”. But when I think about my attitude towards “My” will and hopes in life, this animal comes to mind…the badger. They are known for biting down and not letting go.

Biting down and not letting go, what does this remind me of…

I have plans for my life. I have goals and I have aspirations. And I have them in a some what sold grip. However, small detail, I don’t know what I want to do with my life. For those of you who didn’t follow that train of thought, let me spell it out for you.. Contradiction

So what do I have a strong grip on? I have a strong grip on wanting to be happy and secure. I want to know every thing is going to be ok and I will be happy.

From the outside this looks simple. I am holding tightly to myself hoping myself will come through for me. Unfortunately, I don’t trust myself. So this leaves me with a strong grip on nothing.

I must try and retrain my thinking to believe that I am holding nothing but I am the one being held. My whole lively hood is not mine to obtain. All my wants and needs in this life are not mine to fulfill.

If you haven’t seen the recent Narnia, you must. At one point in the movie the oldest girl states she had just gotten used to living in London and then she is whisked way to Narnia. But what she don’t realize is that she and her brothers and sister have been chosen out of the hundreds of millions to save Narnia, to have more adventures and see more things that anyone could ever imagine. But her grip was tightly held to her plan, wanting to live life out of Narnia where it is consistent and safe. I think this girl and I have something in common.

Let us live.

Daughter of Christian Singer Chapman Killed

I obviously don't know this man nor his daughter, but my heart is completely broken. I can't imagine the pain this family feels right now. But Lord Jesus please send your ministering angles to this man's home and family. Keep them close to your heart as they morn. Stand around their hearts and fight for peace, fight in the middle of all their pain.

I don't know why but I really like this photo

Making a cake

I am stressed. Because of WORK, family drama, and............... my new baby house.

I need to make a cake. Cholochoate to be direct.

No worries, I will just go here emotional

The Over abundance of pain and freedom

Jesus presses me, he presses and pushes on my inners.

Habakkuk 2:20 "But oh! God is in his holy Temple! Quiet everyone—a holy silence. Listen!"

Speak Jesus, Speak Holy Spirit. Quiet all voices. He is speaking. My Lord speaks. He speaks. But I have questions. Why? Why aren't you...Why haven't you...Are you going to...How will you...

"1 What's God going to say to my questions? I'm braced for the worst. I'll climb to the lookout tower and scan the horizon.I'll wait to see what God says, how he'll answer my complaint.
And then God answered: "Write this. Write what you see.Write it out in big block letters so that it can be read on the run.This vision-message is a witness - pointing to what's coming.It aches for the coming—it can hardly wait! And it doesn't lie.If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time. " Habakkuk 2:1-3

It aches, my inner ache for His comming. His Words. Life come forth. Life come Forth! Laura's heart is moving. I feel her moving. But she has tears. She weeps. She weeps. All the things her heart felt at so young. Little girl fear no more. Lies must be silent. She is His and His only. She is lovely. She is pure, she is wanted. She is needed. Laura is a delight to the Father's heart. She is next to Him now. She has His authority.

He loves me. Jesus loves me. He sees me. He broke through my pain. He broke through the hard places. I call forth more freedom. I call forth freedom. I call forth Freedom. Hold me back no more. Hold me back no more. Reflections. Reflected on His power. Reflected on His glory. Reflected on His heart. His heart for me. He loves me. He is strong. He is Holy. Holy Holy Holy. My heart knows no other Holyness. My heart craves no other Holyness. The beauty of His face. The beauty of His thrown. Lord, Lord Jesus. Your goodness. I crave your goodness. Show your mercy, show your power to do all things. My heart needs all things.

Praise be to the only Holy one. The only Holy one.

Habakkuk 2:20 "But oh! God is in his holy Temple! Quiet everyone—a holy silence. Listen!"

A weekend of Fun, Sun and ...

I was in Hot Springs, Arkanas this weekend for my brother's graduation. The lover boy came along. It was really nice to have him there. I love love love Hot Springs. That is where I spent every summer as a young girl swimming at my grandmother's lake house. O the days...

The last pic was from the memorial marathon. I was proud of all of us who ran. It was a good day.

Things He Hates...Reminders to follow

There are six things the Lord hates-no, seven things he detests:
- haughty eyes (proud; snobbish; scornfully arrogant)
-a lying tongue
-hands thats kill the innocent
-a heart that plots evil
-feet that race to do wrong
-a false witness who pours out lies
-a person who sows discord among brothers

Crazy that he uses different bodie parts to show the Lord's hatred.

Scripture says that correction of discipline is the way to life.

Small mental reminders:
-people with good sense restrain their anger, they earn esteem by overlooking wrongs
-Avoid all perverse talk, stay far from corrupt speech
-Sow love, kindness, patience...in dew time you will reap love, kindess and patience.
-Discipline is a connerstone in God's way of life.
-judge a tree by its fruit

The Year of the Lord's Favor

Jesus came to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor. The jubilee, the year of cancellation of debts (Lev 25:8-17; Sloan 1977:39-41). What happened in that year, when debts were canceled and slaves were freed, pictures what Jesus brings for those who respond to his message of hope. Jesus builds on the picture of Isaiah's ministry, which also proclaimed such hope, and notes that what the prophet had proclaimed Jesus is fulfilling.