So ready...

I need some discipline. I used to be the queen of discipline. Up at 5:30am every morning, run 3-4 miles at night, and a class on the side. But these days, not much of that going on. But I am wanting to get back to those days. Not really the 5:30am part, but I would like to start running again and I need to finish this psychology class I am taking.

Little by little, I will try.

This morning was really nice. Spent some good time with Jesus, church, and then lunch with Andy's parents at Red Rock. I love Red Rock. I love the food and atmosphere.

A restaurant's atmosphere is very important to me. I would say almost as important as the food. Happy Sunday!

I CUTE MY hair

Earthly things I would like to have

This morning I woke up and decided I really wanted to have some earthly things. Which I know at first doesn't sound christian, but the truth is... this is a good sign that I am getting back to my old self. Not that I was a real matierial person, but I did have goals I was working toward, and some of them did include saving money to get some things :) So.... here are some of those things!

I really like these cars:)

Any thing at this point would be an upgrade!

And I love dresses!

Moving water

Life moves and pain comes from not moving with it. Think about it. Life is a moving river, pushing rocks, branches along the long bay. But when a branch gets stuck, it just begs to get back on the moving path.

Movement is very important. Physically, emotionally, spiritually. We all need to move about more.

When you get a shot, a good doctor will tell you to keep it moving or it will get sore. When your feelings get hurt, it is really important to voice the pain, but then to ..... keep moving. When you don't move spiritually, you become nasty harm. Not good.

I cut my hair. O it feels really good. It is really short. REALLY short. But I did it. I moved.

I love life. Good times are ahead. Such great things. Peoples, ideas, projects, love making :), new friendships, more freedom, and the best of all...the kingdom is coming.

Free as a Bee in the Summer...

Freedom is one of the best feelings ever. And there is so much freedom to be had. Just this morning I become just a little bit more free. For the every first time today I heard the blood of Jesus. There seems to be this journey I have been on with learning the power of the blood. Yes in my head I know that blood has saved my life, but I never dreamed that the blood could release me from the darkness of fear, or the pain of generational sin, or the need to see the future to be "at rest". Do you want to know what this means in my practical life? It means I don't have to do a thing, I don't have to lift the load, dance around the barn ten times, I don't have to stay on wounded places for the sake of justice. I only have to trust that he loves me and that he will take care of me.

I am free, free to sleep in or get up, free to love, free to trust. Free to renew my heart and then start trusting its desires. One baby step at a time.

Today I went and had lunch with a whole new crowd. And I have to say, I really do like people of all sorts of personalities. I love guys and girls, I love the singles and the married. I love the different places people are in. Jackie's tattoo is right, love does win. Find me there, find me in love these days.